>I'm not the type that gets jealous of much of anything. So it surprises me to say that I am jealous of you. You're living the life that I want, seeing the opportunities that I feel I deserve, and it frustrates me not just because I want what you have, but because I have sunk myself down to the level of envying something that you get to experience. I should be so happy for you, and I am, but rotting at the back of that happiness is a twinge of heartache for what I feel I will never get to be.
I wish you the best anyway because I love you man.